Looking into your blue eyes, every time I got lost as my soul wandered into that unique tranquil place. I felt the breeze of your care grazing the backbone of my existence and shaping the essence of my soul. A place only I can be. A place you’d only accepted me to be part of. My consciousness frozen in that moment wanting to preserve itself in eternity with you. Every time I looked at your eyes I felt at home.
I couldn’t fathom the thought of losing you. I could´t entertain the idea of letting you down. I couldn´t imagine running away from who we were. We were two but, we were one. A paradox in itself taking the form of a very abstract concept yet, very real. The only paradox that I couldn’t question.
I gaze upon the distance thinking of you, now that you´re nowhere to be found. I don´t know how but, you´ve conquered the domain of my mind from the moment I set my sight on you. If it´s you I can´t say no. If it´s you, I get lost and become numb. If it´s for you I can become my very best and even conquer the world. If it´s for us I´ll transform the very foundations of my soul for us to be one. I want you to be back.
I can’t seem to get my mind off you. You are the most beautiful scenery I’ve ever laid my eyes on. The most stunning creation; truly a collaboration of all the Gods. You are the definition of enchantment and the sole ruler of my heart. For you, I would have given it all.
Now, left alone in this cruel reality I question my very existance and the pourpose of our time. I miss you every passing day. I miss your eyes, your smile, your gentle voice. I miss everything about you. All the perfect imperfections you carried and, all the seconds I spent with you. I carry it all as a permanent memory never to be forgotten. Something I can never let go. I always thought your time would be longer than mine. I never thought of losing you. This pain is something I’ve never felt before. My love, I miss you so much. Everyday I pray to the Gods of creation for them to give us a chance to meet once again. Just one more time, to say “I love to you” and hug you once more.
I promise, I will keep moving. I won’t stop here. You’re no longer here but, you left me something precious. A piece of you that I’ll always love: our children. The manifestation of our love gifted to us by the gods. Your little girl isn’t so little anymore. She turns 17 next month, looks just like you and loves to go shopping. She is growing into a very strong lady and looks up to be just like you. Your little superhero, has become such a strong man. He takes care of his sister and is the most humble and gentle person I’ve ever seen. They’ve become everything we could ever wish. I just hope you were here to see them. I miss you so much…
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